Why? Where? and PROBLEMS!!!

why am i going into such situation where i am so desperate and yet i don't dare to go for it? and where can i find all these courage and feelings that i hoped, wished and wanted for? if only i have the most important thing which is the "Confident", i think i wouldn't have such Why? and Where? problem....

problems... problems... problems.... education, still studying yet friends and relatives one by one getting and preparing themselves graduating..yet i still struggling like a tortoise.. why am i so weak in studies? why cant i be a genius?

money, people earning money and supporting family using their income yet i still raise my hand to mom asking for money... such behavior is a disgrace and really a shameful matter..

Why on earth and where on earth can i end such problem..people tends to have problems when they grew older..

Conclusions of me is i am a coward failure person.. without confident and aims my life is like dead people...even wanted to be dead people also cant met their requirement...